Thinking Inside The Box

So I'm sitting here wondering to myself what kinds of things might you faithful readers be interested in reading about.  As I sit here, I can't help but be faced with the fact that I'm just no good at figuring out what other people like.  I do from time to time figure it out, but usually that information quickly departs its momentary rest in my mind for kinder, gentler shores.

I wish I could say that beneath this cold and steely exterior is a sound mind as steady and sure as I carry myself, but in truth, most nights my mind is in as much turmoil as a sea whipped to a frenzy by a passing cyclone.  Turmoil might not be the right term.  It conveys a feeling of blind chaos, which is not exactly how I would describe the thoughts passing through my head.  More like the controlled chaos of a building that has been set for demolition and under the skillful supervision of a demolitions expert, falls to the ground with calculated precision.

But perhaps you're not interested in what's on my mind.  For sure, if I were able to photograph the activity of my mind, you would find it much more intriguing.  You see, I'm not very capable when it comes to sorting out my thoughts into a comprehensible stream of communication by which I can effectively convey to you what it is I'm thinking and feeling.  Or maybe I can and am too scared to try for fear you'll laugh at me.  Rejection is cold dish that I'm still learning how to consume.  Not as cold as revenge when it is served, I'm sure; never the less, I'm convinced it is cold as well.

There is this thing I learned of.  Free writing it is called, if I remember correctly.  It's where you sit down and just start typing whatever comes out.  I hear it is an exercise for writing that can jump start creativity and assist in producing material that may at some point be useful.  I like to thing that I have a bit of skill in that I'm able to actively free write while molding and shaping the words as they come out into something that is appealing and somewhat connected.  I'm sure I have no inherent talent at it, but it.....   Well, I seem to have hit a wall.  All of a sudden, this is more work than fun so this looks like a good point to stop.  Au revoir!

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